Saturday, November 6, 2010

Things I Adore, Things That Please Me

Since nothing that blogworthy has happened to me lately, I decided to just go ahead and list the things that I love in this life. Most of these items or things are a part of my daily existence, so this will give you a good idea of what my life consists of lately.

My job.

I love PSD. I love it with all of my little heart. I love everything about it. I love the people I work with. I share an office with the most brilliant, stylish, sweet lady in the world. I look forward to going to work each day. Just for example, last week I went to Provo High School. That catering class there was having a dessert contest. Since I know the teacher fairly well, she let me and Beetz, who was tagging along, into the judging room where we had full access to over 75 delightful desserts. So many! As much as we wanted! It was a glorious occasion. Love you, PSD. Love you. While not all of it is filled with cake and cookies, and includes long and sometimes less-than-thrilling Board meetings, I still love that job to pieces. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have it.

See this? Times it by 14. That was my dessert tasting experience. Awesome.


Sweet Tooth Fairy Bake Shop.

While I had a giant debate occurred in my heart just barely, I ultimately decided that Sweet Tooth Fairy (STF) is the winner. For the past 4 months or so, Cocoa Bean Cupcake CafĂ© and Sweet Tooth Fairy have been waging a serious battle in my soul. Who deserves my true loyalty? I adore cupcakes. Both sell cupcakes. Both sell really good cupcakes. I own T-shirts from both stores. Multiple. However, upon writing this entry, I know Cocoa Bean does not supply me with the same kind of joy and thrill as does STF. However, I hope you will all be praying for me right now. I am on a cupcake fast. I used to eat at least two or three a week. Not kind to the pocketbook or the waistline. How long will this fast last? Not sure. But I can tell you Mike is much happier, as he does not appreciate the adorable, pint-sized confections like I do, and my jeans fell much happier too. Favorite thing there – very hard decision – the marble cupcake (best of both worlds) and the pumpkin chocolate chip bar. I know I will cry when they take it away, as it is only seasonal.

Books.

Remember the wonderful woman I share an office with? She’s the PSD’s Literacy Specialist, meaning she’s read every book in the world and also owns every book in the world. I wasn’t too big of a reader till I met her. Now she has me with a giant list full of books that I can’t wait to read. Currently, I ‘m stuck on Grapes of Wrath. I say stuck because it isn’t as quick-going or as easy to read as my ultimate faves, Walk 2 Moons or Hunger Games found in the juvenile literature section, like 93% of the books I read. Love those. Could talk all day about those. Hope to own 8 copies of each so I can loan them out to lots of people and share that glory that is in those books. In my defense, my office roommate specializes in those areas. She’s not looking for books for old people, just kids. She used to teach English at Provo High, so she always has teen books on the brain. Not my fault.

Pink Penguin PJ Pants.

This could be my favorite article of clothing that I have ever owned. It is a combination of all things I love. Pink and penguins. I’m cool with pj pants, but I’d honestly rather wear my favorite pair of beautiful brown trousers from Gap that I know I’d covet if I didn’t already own. However, pink penguins would not look very appropriate in a work setting, so if they have to be on pj pants, so be it. My family gave me these last year for Christmas. I try and stay in them as long as possible each morning, and are the first thing to come on my body after work. Nothing beats my pink penguin pj pants.



My Blanket.

Linus and I are kindred spirits. The blanket I own is magical. It knows what temperature I am and therefore acts accordingly. If I’m hot, he feels nice and cool. If I’m only a little cold, he only warms me a little bit. If I’m super cold, he warms me up all the way. I don’t know how this happens or how it works. Mike doesn’t believe any blanket could do that. He even tried it once, but he still said it didn’t work. It could probably be that this blanket and I have been together for a really long time and he just knows me so well. I got him when I was sick in jr. high and my sweet Aunt Sue made it for me because my really old blanket might have repulsed her. I my old blanket from birth and it had Muppet Babies on it. I loved that blanket, but, I will admit, I did look quite ragged. The Muppet Babies on that blanket were not longer recognizable. She gave me this one and we’ve been together going on 12 years now. I’ve been with it 3 times longer than Mike. No wonder he doesn’t understand how magical my blanket is. This blanket has been through everything with me. High school, college, marriage. It’s been around me when I’ve felt the most happy and content, but has also helped soak up and wipe away my tears. He’s been through everything with me. I even took him to Germany to visit my family because I knew I wouldn’t last without it.

I must have this thing to sleep. I like to have at least half of it wrapped around my neck. It sounds dangerous, but that’s how I like it. Sleeping simply doesn’t happen when it’s gone. Vacations are the worst, hence taking it to Germany for two weeks. If it falls off during the night, I somehow notice, grab it, and all is well again. One night, Mike fell asleep before he made it under the covers. He looked cold, so I thought I would be so sweet and put my wonderful blanket on him. Big mistake. I went to bed a while later and attempted to get warm and snuggly with just my sheets. I had to snuggle with something as Mike was asleep and my blanket was elsewhere. During the night I went to snatch if from him because I could not sleep, but couldn’t feel it anywhere, as it must have fallen off him sometime earlier. I didn’t want get out of bed, so I waited and waited to fall asleep. Never happened. After who knows how long, I got out of bed, retrieved it, and was able to fall asleep in no time. This blanket is magical. I have no idea what will happen when he reaches the stage my Muppet Baby one did. He’s already on his way, poor thing. All of the ties have come out, so all of the batting is one corner now. I think this makes my blanket all the more appealing because he is now a pillow AND a blanket. It took a minute to get used to, but he is all the more awesome now.



Kettlenetics.

Michelle Khai and I are best friends. We hang out about twice a week, hopefully. She continually inspires me with her ridiculously defined arms, calves and tummy. While our bodies might look really different, we’re basically the same because we both have the same bangs. She assures me that most of our activities together will “whittle away that muffin top” for sure. I discovered Kettlenetics when I was visiting my family in Germany. My mom always has some sort of new exercise video laying around. I never really cared too much about them until I saw the intriguing kettlebells (originated in ancient Russian Olympic training gyms, in case you were wondering). I was bored one rainy afternoon there and decided to give it a whirl. Loved it. Emailed Mike immediately and begged him to buy me my own set so it would arrive before I got home and I would never have to be without Michelle ever again.


Collective Soul.

Remember that kind-of-rock group that was kind of big in 2001? I love them. I discovered them about 2 years ago. Mike and I were going to go on our first camping trip, which is a story in and of itself. Never go camping in January in Utah. Especially if it is your first time. Just don’t do it. Anyway, we were looking for some music to play during the car ride. Pandora had played a few Collective Soul songs in the past and I gave them a thumbs up. I officially committed and bought 2 songs on iTunes. If Mike had let me play them back to back, over and over, I would have been in heaven. Now, I just can’t get enough of them. Their new stuff, their old stuff, love it all.


Yogurt, Berries, and Granola.

I eat this at least two times a day. I have all the supplies at work and at home. A cup of vanilla yogurt, some spoonfuls of berries, cover the top with granola, and you have a mighty tasty meal. This has now become what was once my pb and j to me. I loved pb and j. I had pb and j for lunch everyday and sometime for dinner for at least 15 years. It pains me to tell you that I don’t appreciate pb and js anymore. This tragedy occurred just a year or two ago. I don’t know what happened. My continual craving simply ceased. It’s not that I hate them, I could eat one just fine. I just don’t crave them anymore. It was really quite sad when it happened. I had no fallback food. Nothing I could count on sounding good when leftovers for dinner did not appeal. Yogurt, berries and granola have now filled that void for me.


Sticky Notes.

At I work I am a sticky note fiend extreme. They are everywhere. In different colors. In different sizes. On everything. My computer, my desk, my window, my lamp, my desk phone and my cell phone. I wouldn’t get a single thing done if it weren’t for those glorious, little inventions. One says ‘Please exercise when you get home.” Another says, “Remember the newsletter you send out ever term? Don’t forget to do that.” Things I am bound to forget if I don’t have it staring at me all day. Most of them are work related, but one or two are bound to have things that that I need to buy at the grocery store that week that popped into my head while I was typing up a news release or something. Sticky notes have saved me my job, my household and my sanity. Thank you 3M.


MAC Makeup.

All of the ladies at work use MAC. They always look fabulous. I had an eyeshadow from MAC when I was in high school, but never really used it because I didn’t want to wear make up back then. I was a hobo, despite my best friend’s gentle suggestions (sorry and thank you to Brianne who never gave up on me). It wasn’t until I entered Miss Salem that I discovered what a little blush, mascara and shadow could do for a girl. I never looked back after that. Doing my make up is now my favorite part of my morning, after eating my yogurt, berries and granola. It is especially fun now because I know it’s still going to be there after lunch. Before, that was not how things went. It wasn’t like I rubbed my face all day either. My old makeup would simply vanish, dissolve, dissipate, leaving me very frustrated and gross-looking. MAC, however, not the case. That stuff stays put all stinking day! Miracles! My life has never been better since I discovered MAC. The downside is the price, of course. I have a list as long as the Great Wall full of eyeshadows, lip gloss, brushes, primer, mascara, bronzers, and other make up necessities. My Laken Fund, my allotted monthly allowance, can only handle a couple eyeshadows and a lip gloss each time, so it’s going to take me quite a while to get to the stage where I feel fully stocked, but I’ll get there someday.


Mike.

Last, but definitely most fave = Mike. I love that boy. He’s my favorite part about my life. While it is very normal to only see him for dinner and about an hour after, including most Saturdays and Sunday, I’m always so excited to see him and relish the time we have together. That boy works so hard. I admire him so much for his dedication. He hasn’t slept in for years. He puts in an average of 16 hours a day at the library. He still is magically able to do everything though. He manages his demanding church calling, and still cleans and bathroom every week. In case you didn’t know, cleaning the bathroom is the worst chore in my mind. I don’t know what happened when I was kid, but have always hated it. I think it was because my parents always made me do it. For a long time I think it was because they never let me switch off with my younger sister. They said I did a much better job than she did, and therefore I was ordered to do it more. The unfairness of the situation made me despise the job, and I don’t think I ever got over it. Eventually she was put into the rotation, but the damage had already been done. Mike is always so willing to do it, and he doesn’t even mind! Thank you, Mike for always cleaning the bathroom. You have no idea how much it means to me. I know he always tries his best to make me happy every single day. You know, I’m not sure that Mike has ever had a bad day. While I’m sure things have gone wrong for him, it never really gets him down and he does whatever he can to make sure everything is going well for me and does anything he can to make it even better. He endures the decorative pillows on the couch, the strange order in which I must have laundry folded, and the inordinate amount of time I spend in the bathroom. He is so good at complimenting whatever I make for dinner. He always makes me feel really good about my blossoming cooking skills, which gives me the confidence to be brave and try new things. He is so good about making our Friday night dates sacred and letting nothing get in the way of those. He always tells me I’m pretty even when I feel I am not. Even though he has mountains of homework to push through, he’ll often text me during the day just to say hello and that he loves me. Those are just few of the reasons why Mike is the best husband a girl could ever dream of, and I love him to pieces. Thank you for being mine, Mike. I love you.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Thanksgiving = Favorite

Halloween = meh. I could live my life quite comfortably without this holiday. I’m a hobo and I don’t like to dress up, I’m trying to avoid candy right now, I hate carving pumpkins, and, since I don’t have children, the ones who come knocking on my door annoy me. However, one thing did amuse me this year. We went to the ward Halloween party on Saturday, and watching Mike in the donut eating competition was very entertaining.

Let’s fast forward to Thanksgiving. I love this holiday. Not only do I love feasting upon buttery rolls, graveyed-up potatoes, and dark meat, but I treasure that I get to focus on all of the wonderful blessings I have. It has been my favorite for years now. Dare I say more favorite than Christmas?

Once upon a time, I was in high school. When I was in this stage of life, a friend gave me a gratitude journal. I was instructed to write down 5 things I was grateful for each day starting a month before Thanksgiving arrived. One rule: You many never repeat anything that you are grateful for. They all have to be new, different things. I peeled off the cover that had assorted gratitude quotes on it and jazzed it up with NASCAR stickers, and then it quickly became something I was interested in. The first week was a piece of cake. I thought of the usual things: water, house, clothes, NASCAR, Dexter (my beloved Honda Civic), food, etc. Things got a little harder after that. I had to keep my eyes open and be thinking about the good things God had blessed me with. It was neat because I could really see God’s hand working to help me and answer my prayers. I know I wouldn’t have noticed if I weren’t keeping careful watch for my gratitude journal. Keep in mind that this didn’t happen right away. Some of my entries were quite self-centered and ridiculous.

Hence journal entry on Friday, November 21, 2003:

Glasses – only cute ones

I can do pushups

Caller ID

Foosball

I have eyebrows

My assortment of curling irons

Waffle Crisp


I think it took me several years to grasp the concept of looking for God’s hand in my daily life. However, I caught on eventually, and I always look forward to pulling out my little gratitude journal each and every year.


My wonderful ward Relief Society had a complete activity centered upon these stellar things. We made the cutest journals ever, which was perfect, because my old NASCAR one was full. After making one at the activity, I became a psycho-crazy-journal-making fiend, making them complete with an inside cover pocket. I have never been so crafty. I discovered Aleene’s Super Thick Tacky Craft Glue of Glory (it even fixed my kitchen chair! Mike didn’t believe craft glue would work, but Aleene sure showed him) and went to town. I have made probably about 2 dozen. My family, office friends, visiting teachees/teachers all have them, and I will probably make more before the week is over. I can’t stop.


Here are a few. These, unfortunately, are not my finest work. I sent the best ones to my family in Germany before I thought of taking a picture.



In case I wasn’t sure I got enough gratitudyness in, Mike and I constructed a Gratitude Tree on our front door for FHE. Every day we each write a thing we’re grateful for on a leaf and put up two leaves a day. It may look a little bare right now, but wait until Thanksgiving. That tree is going to look sweet.



PS. I have had this strange, sudden obsession with peanut butter cookies. I’ve made three batches in the past two weeks and I simply cannot get enough. No Halloween candy allowed, but cookies are always ok. : ) I am loving these!


While you’re looking, please notice the incredible countertops I have. Where else but Wymount can you find seafoam green with gold flecks? Um, probably nowhere. Mike and I are some of the remaining few, even here, to have these beauties. Despite their hideousness, Mike and I still think Wymount is the bomb.com. Best place for students to live ever. Ok, maybe it’d be the best if it had a washer and dryer. And a dishwasher too. And some sort of bathroom counter space for my assortment of curling irons. Ok, maybe it’s not so awesome. Good thing it’s gratitude time!

Monday, October 11, 2010

Fear of Having Children

Last night I went to a Relief Society fireside.

Before that I was at my wonderful Gma Stewart's house and having a wonderful time chatting about olden-day Halloween costumes, pretzels, and childhood memories of getting in trouble. My confession was drawing on the kitchen table in permanent marker when I was 4 and not fessing up after extreme parental interrogation for 3 days. Mike's was dumpster diving at the age of 5, finding and treasuring a car battery, and throwing discarded steak knives into trees. I was having a really good time with Mike, my sister JayneAnn (lovingly called Beetz), and Gma. I was so tempted to just stay at Gma's and eat more of her crab salad and crackers with nacho cheese and ignore that the fireside was going to happen. However, I left only 5 minutes later that when I told myself I should.

So at this fireside, that I was only 6 minutes late for, a lot what was said was talking about how lucky we are to be sealed to our families forever through our wonderful temples. This is especially wonderful because I am sealed to Mike. The one problem = I have an extreme fear of having children. Really. Not the whole raising them thing. That sounds like a piece of cake. I am deathly afraid of the whole labor and delivery part. Nothing sounds worse in the world to me. I told Mike I'd rather swallow 20 living spiders than go through that. I don't know why I'm so afraid, I just am. How am I going to be sealed to my whole family if I'm too scared to bring them into this world physically? Please let the stork story be true! You know, I'm scared of lots of things:

1. Giving birth (obviously)
2. Running out of gas
3. Spiders/Snakes/Bug Things
4. I am Legend zombies
5. Burglars
6. Getting a really bad bang trim
7. An earthquake happening while I'm in the shower
8. Losing my eyeliner or mascara.

All in that order. Not even joking, going through labor tops all of those. You think I am kidding, but I am not.

Just last week I was at Centennial Middle School. Part of my job at Provo School District includes going to various events to check out the things kids are doing. I take pictures of them doing scholarly things, then post stories on PSD's web site. Cool, right? This particular event at Centennial was a healthcare career fair for high schoolers in Provo and Alpine districts. Lots of doctors and nurses from all sorts of hospitals and departments were there. Kids could pick two or three they wanted to hear about and listen to them talk about their field. By pretending to be a real photographer, I needed a decent photo op to put on the web. I heard the labor and delivery class was having kids touch placentas. Very gross, but better than some dude standing next to a boring Powerpoint. I thought that while I was there, I should learn more about this whole delivering process. If I know what happens, I won't be as scared, right? This sounded very logical to me. I was standing in the back of the classroom, waiting patiently for the placenta to be passed around. Since I was wearing a pair of my more uncomfortable heels, I thought I should sit down in a spot in the back. Things progressed and the nurse talked about more uncomfortable things. Dilating, how to tell when the unborn baby is stressed, umbilical cords, etc. These probably wouldn't gross out a normal person, but they sure made me feel weird. Due to my extreme fear of needles, I was a good girl and closed my eyes for the epidural part. However, I knew things were still going downhill. Since I tend to pass out when faced with strange, medically situations and all needle pokings, I had a good idea where all of this was going. I tried to do all the things my doctor told me to if I felt like passing out:

1. While sitting, put your head between your knees.
Didn't help.
2. Breathe slowly and deeply.
Not working.
3. Get as close as you can to the ground so you don't get a concussion when you drop.
Maybe?

The next thing I remember I was sweating all over the place and there were three or four nurses around me asking me my name, where I was, and if I felt like throwing up. Awesome.

Luckily I happened to be at a healthcare career fair, complete with EMTs. Two gentlemen promptly rolled a stretcher through the class, lifted me onto it, and wheeled me through the sea of gawking high school-aged eyes. As they wheeled me away, I tried to pretend I was dead on the stretcher because it would be easier not to cry of embarrassment if I was dead. That actually helped. I better not see any of these people ever again. Students included.

I had an EMT, who looked like a younger, and shall I say more handsome?, version of Antonio Banderas call Mike to retrieve me. These people proceeded to do all sorts of tests on me. I told them over and over that I pass out when medically things scare me. Not a big deal. Just really, really, really, really embarrassing.

Mike was at the school in record time. Everyone was exceptionally nice to me. The nurse put in charge of watching me ended up being the mother of a kid I went to high school with. It all turned out fine. This is for my mom: Don't worry. I went to the doctor after. He said I didn't have any heart or seizure problems. I just have a strangely strong reaction to medically things. My body is fine. In case you are wondering, passing out will not happen while I'm driving because I will not encounter gross medically things on the road. There is a country song I like that talks about all of the bad things that happen to a guy in a day, including a part about having to go to the dentist, but I always change the station when it gets to the numbing shot part. Promise. While I'm sure you will worry, there is no logical reason for you to do so.

So this experience did not help me in wanting to have children. It only made it worse, if that was even possible. Flashback to the fireside, where I'm lamenting that storks no longer bring children to moms and dads. As I was sitting there, sad about my amazing wimpiness, an extremely wonderful, glorious, divine and amazing thought came into my head,

"Laken, I know you're scared of giving birth, but it's going to be ok. I promise. It will turn out just fine and you will do great. I'll be with you every step of the way."

I know Heavenly Father was letting me know He cares about my weird concerns, and I know He wants to help me with them. I was so grateful I went to that fireside so I could be in a place where I could feel the spirit and be able to hear that really comforting message that I really needed.

While I know a little Cannon will not be running around any time too soon in the future, and I still feel a little scared about the whole process, I know that everything will be ok. I didn't know that before. Running out of gas can now move to the top of my scary list.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Let's Try This Again...

As the evenings where I am home while Mike parties it up at the Lib increase in number, I have discovered that exercising and reading can only entertain me so long. This poor, neglected blog will frequently come to mind. While I am fully aware of the fact that my life is a little more dull compared to the next, why not?

Since the last post, mucho has happened in our little lives.

1. There was the whole law school application thing. Mike received zillions of stellar options, and most had some sort of scholarship attached. Awesome, right? Yes. However, we Cannons like to turn fun decisions into long, drawn-out, complicated processes. After months and months of deliberation, including around 83 pro/con sheets and me developing several ulcers over the matter, we/mostly he settled on staying right here in Provo to go to BYU (which thrilled me beyond belief).

2. First year of law school = a blur. Mostly Mike = absent. Sad for both of us. Work at my favorite Provo School District (PSD), hanging out with my family, and finding a strange, new love for cooking (thanks to watching Julia and Julie), made things better. Never fear, his insane studyingness paid off. That boy is brilliant/the hardest worker ever. He did really well and was offered two very lovely internships in Salt Lake that summer. Awesome. Surprised? Not really.

3. My dear family, who kept me so entertained, vamoosed from lovely Salem, Utah and settled back down in Nansdeiztweiler, Germany. Random, yet cool? Yes. My father is now doing IT stuff for an Army hospital there. My siblings now enjoy early morning seminary (heh heh), but also tennis tournaments and EFY in London, school trips to Switzerland, and other insane opportunities. While they do have to get up at 4:45 each morning, they get to do the coolest things that I never dreamed of as a little high schooler. While I miss them dearly, it is really fun to hear about their adventures trying the food, trying to fit Mrs. Norris, our beloved, giant Astro van, into parking spaces literally meant for Smart Cars, and other assorted fun. I had a lovely time visiting them for a couple weeks over the summer.

4. Mike and I have a sincere and deep love for Glee. Artie and Kurt top my list of favs, but I envy Emma's adorable clothes and hair and try to copy her all of the time.

5. I had my gallbladder removed. Probably one of the best days of my life. Not only did my stomach stop freaking out, but my strangely diseased gallbladder kept messing up my liver, which didn't cause any serious damage, it just made it want to have weird allergic reactions to things causing me to be extremely rashy for a few months. Gross/weird/so glad that's over.

6. Summer flew by. Mike worked hard at his fun internships at Chapman and Cutler and then at Parr Brown. Never heard of these firms? Don't worry, neither had I. Parr Brown = lots of social events. Some of them were quite amazing, nearly all of which I was invited to as well. We're talking concerts, including Paul McCartney, movies during the work day, going out to fancy restaurants, over night stays at Sundance, and many, many more. Insane.

7. Law school year 2. Our lives and sense of time now revolve around law school things, job application deadlines, etc. The whole month of September = Mike running around the country for interviews. He was gone at least one night a week in various cities including Dallas, San Diego, and New York City. We feel so lucky to have had these interviews, but we were both getting real tired of them at the end. It was so weird/wonderful to have him home there at the end! Thank heaven I had JayneAnn, my adorable sister, back from Germany to work and college it up, to shop, party, and eat cupcakes with me.

Success was had in all of these places and he received summer internship offers from at least one firm in each place. In law world, wherever you perform your second summer internship will 99% be the place you will work for once you graduate. Remember how we love to make fun decisions into hard and difficult ones? Please refer to #1, except no ulcers were involved this time. We only had about two weeks to deliberate on this one, instead of 9 months like before. Thank heaven. Through much prayer, fasting, and temple visiting we both felt that Dallas would be the best fit for us. While people question our choice when we could have had San Diego or NYC, we feel really good about it. Hopefully it will all work out. Of course it will! At least that's what I tell Mike all of the time. Can you see me as a Texan?

Forever long? Yes. Sorry.

Now you are officially caught up on our life and what in heavens name is going on, hopefully making other things make sense.